I've spend the last 14 years of my working life on the sports desk, covering Motherwell and Kilmarnock to begin with before stepping up to the Old Firm and Scotland. As a football fan, it really is the ideal job.
Liquidation. The one word fans of the debt-laden Ibrox club feared most. And the one that yesterday chilled thousands of fans to their bones.
The decision by the taxman to reject the CVA brokered by the Charles Green consortium was yet another crushing blow to the Light Blue legions in what has been the darkest period in the club's 140-year history.
SportTimes takes a look at the implications of HMRC's decision and where it now leaves the various factions in the Rangers saga.